Monday, December 12, 2011

... even if the sky should fall

"Courage is not the absence of fear and despair; it is the capacity to move forward confidently trusting the maker of the heavens to cover us with the shadow of his mighty hand even if the sky should fall."

I’ve been sitting at the computer for a while now, typing, then deleting what I’ve written. No parent wants to hear the words we heard on Friday last week. We had our morphology scan, and there are concerns about our baby’s brain. We had an Obstetrician appointment today, and while we were pleased to receive some more information about what the ‘concerns’ actually are, it did little to dispel our fears. We have been referred to a fetal-maternal specialist who will, God willing, be able to give us further information about our baby’s health and prospects for the future. We are not sure when that appointment will be, but are praying that it will be scheduled sometime in the near future. 

I’ll never forget what Scott said this morning as we were talking about and praying for our baby: “Hannah, whatever happens, we saw our baby’s face at the scan, and it is beautiful.”


Psalm 139

11 If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
   and the light become night around me,”
12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
   the night will shine like the day,
   for darkness is as light to you.
 13 For you created my inmost being;
   you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
   your works are wonderful,
   I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
   when I was made in the secret place,
   when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
   all the days ordained for me were written in your book
   before one of them came to be. 


  1. Oh Hannah, there are no words. We are certainly praying for your little one, and for all of you.

    May God work as mightily in your baby's body as He has in ours, and may He give you strength and comfort as His perfect plan for your family unfolds.

  2. Hannah, let me know what the doctors are thinking when you know more. We have travelled this path and have done so much research. Remember that they will tell you the worst - they have to cover themselves by telling you what may happen - but we have a God who will only allow what he wants to happen. We were told Sophie would not live much beyond one - she is now 8 and powering on. Hang in there. Be positive because this little one does not need to feel fear or despair, breathe the peace of God into this precious child. Wish I could hug you but I send you a cyber hug and prayer.

  3. Oh Hannah,
    Our hearts go out to you and your family.
    Speaking from one who has experienced a whirl wind 1st pregnancy I hear the sadness and fear in your words. Brings back alot of memories.
    We pray that God's hand will be upon you and Scott and the kids in this time.
    We pray that this will not be an anxious time for you all. Sarah Vidins

  4. Hannah and Scott, you are in my prayers and have been in my thoughts all day. Praying for an early appointment so you can get more details. Scott: what a precious beautiful thing to say, sums up perfectly your love and dedication already to this special little baby. Wendy x

  5. 'Even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast.'
    Psalm 139

    We are praying.